It is almost a year since I have come to this ng. You heard many times how I verify all I hear, read. Not long ago, there was a research done in Europe which said that the most single reason for cancer in human is lack of respect we experience in our lives. Looking at the people whom I knew, looking into my experiences it stroked me as something very probable.
Almost at the same time coincidentally I started to look into Freemasonry. When I started reading this ng there seemed to be lots of disrespect toward ‘cowans’ non masons and others. Not immediately, but after a while I decided on an experiment. This ng was a perfect environment for it. Will my cancer return or not if I allow myself to feel that disrespect from you?
While my heart went to others I willingly submitted myself. I had times of scare, of pain, the desire to leave sooner but I was convinced there must be more time, at least a year (on average 18 months) of that treatment to see the results. Now at the request and begging from my family and friends I will leave you. They say it is enough!!! I we all agree with that. I will allow myself to be observed here in Canada for some time before I go to Europe where loving people beg me to come back.
Meanwhile, I have good news. I bought myself a bright new home and soon will start entirely new life in a new place. I will not read this ng anymore and please do not comment. I know it now that was the most ‘kooky’ idea I have ever had.
